Juornal 1
From The Birdhouse
ive been putting some photos on my blog so my friends can see them. even some of the weird stuff
but i relized theres some stuff i dont wanna say to them
so this is for that i guess.
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everyone knows my leg has sculk on it cause i told them
but i didnt tell them abuot the dream i had before i woke up
i mean it could be nothing. dreams arent real. theyre not supposed to be its just youre brain making stuff up.
in the dream i was at the diner and he was there. i was so happy adn i ran over and then he wasnt there
i dont remember what he looked like. why cant i remember. i know him better than anyone but i dont know him anymore. all i know is daisies
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gods been realy mean. i know its probably cause hes stressed with all the stuff happening but it still makes me sad
wanted to have fun fighting the wither together but it said no. i pretended like i wasnt disapointed
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i had another dream before the sculk moved down to the diner
dont want to think about it
if i dont write it down then maybe ill forget and itll all be okay
ive been forgetting a lot
is it just me? everyone else talks like they rembember going into gods house
i just have the picture adn a memory of everyone talking. dunno what they were talking about.
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i miss him. it hurts
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everyone has so many secrets. everyone knows everyone has sercets.
i wanna say we should all be honest adn maybe we could figure everythign out together but thatd mean id have to be honest too
its not a bad secret i dont think. but feels like i gotta protect it from everyone
like its a little seed and its really delicate adn everyone has big stompy boots thatd crush it if they knew
maybe god has a lot of little seeds?
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i feel bad for god. dont want him to be sad but also dont want rhubrab to be sad
mabey if im friends with god itll be happier and when hes happier then he can help rhubrab too?
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havent been to spawn in a while. workign on hill valley. have to finish hill valley. wanna see friends and say hi to god in its pretty birdhouse but hill valley
legs really itchy today
maybe ill go tomorrow
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try to be funny so everyones happy but that doesnt realy ever work on god. always says we dont understand.
wish i was smarter. i want to understand the stuff thats makign him so scared. if i understood maybe i could help adn he wouldnt be so scared anymore
well i understand when he says hes alone.
i know what alone feels like. every day is lonely without my daisy.
i wanna be friends. i dont want god to be as lonely as me. dont want anyone to be so lonely. just dont know how to say it
daisy would know what to do.
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im sorry.
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i think god read this. while i was sayign hi to the bees. thats not my handwriting
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maybe ill write a letter. thats what daisy would do.
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wrote lots of letters with god. its scared. dosent trust me. thats ok. dunno if id trust me either.
started writign a book to keep track of all the wierd stuff. so he doesnt have to. at first he didnt like it and made me sad but then he said thank yuo and even drew a smily face on it :-)!
im happy its happy now. i hope it stays happy adn nothing scary happens for a while
does this mean were friends now?
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workin hard on hill valley. clocktowers almost done!! well the front of it. dunno abuot the back part...
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1. yellow
2. daisies
3. smile
4. dance
5.
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god built a big pretty tower and a pretty garden! they look realy nice adn theres even a jukebox in the garden. i put one in mine too cause thats smart.
gave him daisies to plant in the garden. hope he likes them and they grow really big adn strong.
he was cryign when i said hello. said he was fine but i dunno if thats true. i hope the flowers help him smile more.
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headhurts so bad why why wuoldhe do that it was so loudadn scary and idont know where he wentwhere did yuo go did isay somethign wrong ididnt mean it ijust wanted to help i just wanted ijust my leg hurts itsnever donethatbefore icant do this withuot daisy please dont leaveme forever daisygoddais
i'm trying, sinta.